*rubbing face* Uh, what's the date again?

[jedibuttercup]

I apparently now have a FandomHistory wiki page: go figure. Not that it has anything on it yet that they didn't auto-scrape from the Pit of Voles. Still, 'tis a curious development.

I have come to the conclusion that the reason Ryan Seacrest makes so many sexually ambiguous comments/actions on American Idol, but then always resorts to defensive heteronormative claims when pressed, doesn't have anything to do with his actual sexuality, wherever it falls on the spectrum. It's an attempt to position himself as a show-host that everybody can identify with/be attracted to, regardless of orientation. Think about it a minute. With his work ethic? Marketability explains everything.

--On a more serious note. A work project for which I was drastically out of my depth, in addition to family issues and serious insomnia, have prevented my creative energy from recovering these last few weeks. I feel like I'm making excuses, but when I open up a blank page and the words don't come, there's no use forcing it. My brother is finally settling at his new base-- he had a bad first couple of weeks in Florida-- but Mom's in a black-hole depression now, and it's not just the fact that my brother isn't here anymore; there's also considerable co-worker-bitch-factor and problems-with-best-friend going on with her, and it makes me feel a little bit helpless.

It's been long enough since DS died, nearly three months now, that his mother doesn't need constant support anymore-- and now, instead of seeing a shoulder to cry on when she looks at my mom, she can't help but see person whose military son is still alive when mine isn't, so she's gone from clinging to repelled in no time flat. Mom is not dealing with that well at all, especially since she's still grieving, too. I was pretty furious with her for unrelated reasons a couple of weeks ago, but that's hard to hold onto when every time I see her the angle of her shoulders and the weary lines on her face make my heart hurt before she even opens her mouth.

At least I'm finally mostly caught up on LJ-reading, after a couple of weeks' avoidance of the 'net. Though not so much commenting: apologies.

And I did get to see Iron Man on Friday! Best superhero movie since Batman Begins, IMHO.

*mentally pushing up sleeves* New tthdrabbles challenge later today, I swear; I've let that slide long enough. And drabbles, too, hopefully. I need to give myself a good kick in the pants.
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Comments

[flingslass.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking of WRITING! See what you lot have done to me! :D Take it one day at a time and write when the muses feel like it *hugs*

[kerravonsen]

{hugs}

What is this FandomHistory thing? I've never heard of it before. Who are these people? An ambitious project, I don't expect it to succeed, really; not in the sense of actually covering everything that needs to be covered, or of being particularly accurate. Hmmm.

[beatrice_otter]

Well, like any Wiki, the more people who work on it, the more chance it has of being accurate and covering everything. I think it's a good idea, though I agree that it's probably not going to fully achieve its goals.

[beatrice_otter]

Anger is a common response to grief. Particularly since our culture doesn't like grief and there's a lot of societal pressure to "get over it" in a ridiculously short amount of time. Anger is more socially acceptable than prolonged grieving. Anger feels easier to the person grieving than acknowledging their grief does.

Have you tried keeping a journal? It'll get you writing again, and it may help you deal with all the frustrations and grief in your life right now. Seriously, we understand about RL and (especially!) family taking precedence over online stuff.

[trinfaneb.livejournal.com]

Your advice reminds me of the character Bubbles on "The Wire" who said that "its ok to hang onto grief as long as you leave room for other things."

Welcome back to LJ, Jedibuttercup, I missed you :)

[catherinecookmn.livejournal.com]

Huggity!

[webtarkeena.livejournal.com]

Buy or Borrow this book: Tear Soup (http://www.amazon.com/Tear-Soup-Pat-Schweibert/dp/0961519762)
It's a very accessible allegory about the grieving process - appropriate for any age, although presented as a children's illustrated story.
I found it a helpful and insightful, although I didn't have an immediate application for it when I read it.
Of course, it's oft repeated theme is "Grief takes time. Lots of it." But it also emphasises that it's OK to deal with it slowly.
Anyway, check it out. Might be of some help to you and/or your Mom and/or DS's mom.

[madonnna67.livejournal.com]

I like you because of your icon!